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When You Lose it All
And keep losing it…
It’s been a while since I’ve written much. I have reactivated my account after putting it on hold for a while while I went through a custody case. My ex was hell-bent on digging up everything he could to prove that I wasn’t the best mother.
I can still barely come to terms with the fact that my children will have to spend 50% of their time with a narcissistic monster.
I live in a state that is a big proponent of 50% custody. Unless the father is a convicted child molester, pedophile, or something equally as awful, he will get 50% custody.
My lawyer actually victim-shamed me. That was hard. When I said that my step-child and adopted daughter would testify against him on my behalf, she stated that because I didn’t call the police or DHS for the incidents that I was equally as guilty.
When you fear for your life, I seriously doubt you would say “oh wait a minute, let me call the police on you.”
The justice system is a complete and total piece of shit.
It’s stacked against anyone that isn’t a white male.
I’ve been defeated.
I’ve been pretty non-functional for the past month and a half.
Someday I will get my shit together.
I upped my anti-depressants, and added an anti-anxiety med.
I’ve taken on a bunch of home organization projects.
I will prevail.
It will just take a minute.
